i know very well...
dat i ....
can't go back 2 d past...
it's all over...
i'll keep it ...
as the best memory i've ever had....
deep in my heart....n lock....

would i ever had my dreams bek??
even just 4 a moment....
dat will b enough...
more than enough...

''just gonna stand there and watch me burn...
but that's alright coz i juz love the way it hurts ...
i love the way it hurts....''


huuuh...
pj 4 2day...
it's quite fun ...
playing badminton wif ying, ming chin n a sok...
but the racquet ar....
haiz...
boleh pusing punya men!!!
haha....but at least can play la....

zuhan's birthday is coming!!
they said v'll go 2 s.r n celebrate....
yala...
i noe u guys love ~2 eat cakes....
but i wan 2 go d'island e...
yooooo....bt no 1 bother me...hehe...
my birthday is coming too....
will there be any1 2 wishing me happy birthday??
i wish so....

jing told me bout a really serious thing.... (secretly)
really angry n it's really unfair lo....
how can dat person do like this???
she din even admit dat she did wrong....
ishhhh....

anyway....
2day is d happiest day i've ever had since i came 2 h.l....
everything is normal....

n dat's all i want.

CoRLD...

tennis training again....
wat i can say is tired , exhausted, n hot!!
i cried 2day again.....
ishhh...
i dun cry becoz i can't play it well....
i cried becoz i have 2 much pressure at d same time..
tragedy....
ya...they r some ....
i have 2 considered bout many thgs....
COMPLICATED~

but i'm so relieved now....
so...i walk away ....
without any burden ....
i cnt laugh out nw....
i fake a smile....
n take a gud sleep...

刚刚才上面子书。。。。
我smkm可爱的同学突然发了一封信息给我。。。
这时才发现。。。
我最好的朋友。。。
一直在我身边。。。
感动啊~

然后。。。
刚好很无聊的。。。
看到了一个很熟悉又很陌生的照片。。。
在好奇心的驱使之下。。。
便去看了看他的profile...
OMG。。。
看了之后。。。
我仿佛就像失意后突然又恢复记忆的人。。。
我到底有多久没看过这个人了？？？
咳。。。
可悲耶~
没想到事情竟已过了那么久。。。
人生就是这么回事吧？？？

今天。。。
班上的气氛怪怪的。。。
（其实只有我们这组）
一来到学校。。。
原本热情地朋友们。。。
好像都有点酷。。。
就连zhuzhuxia。。。
都超安静的。。。
今天可以说是没说过半句话。。。
咳。。。
到底发生了什么事？？
我也不清楚。。。
结果？？
我也带着沉重的心情去顾班。。。
回到来。。。。
才发现。。。。
原来她发烧了。。。
亏我还一直打扰人家。。。
真是抱歉。。。
然后。。。。。。。。。。。。



总之。。。
今天。。。
大家好像心情都很down...
如果每一天都是将就惨了。。。
希望明天大家都有好心情o。。。

aiyo....
my blog very hard 2 understang meh??
sad lo....
mayb my writting skills are not good lo...
55555~

i keep thinking bout if i'm not a human ...
wat will i b??
if i can choose...
i hope i can be a big big tree....
with a lot of apple and pears and mango....
it's kind of weird izit??
or i can be a cloud....
or maybe a moon??
a door??
a room??
a fish??
a book??
a handphone??
a football player ?? hahaha...
an eraser??


or my fren zhuzhuxia...or joey or yvonne??
ya i noe .....
this wont happen....
i'm juz imagining~

huuuuh...
finally....
i really got my time 2 write a blog....
i've been quite busy this few weeks....
now i got a nice and warmy rest...

ya....singing competition....
haiz....
son sad...
gt ''an wei jiang'' only oo...
T.T
but seriously...
i didn't get any nervous or panic when i get up on the stage...
i'm quite....
enjoy dis feel...
nah...
who cares bout what place we got in d competition...
(but we did care bout d cash v got...hehe...)
wat we wan is fun!!


2day ar.....quite bored.....
sumtimes....
i thk i'm a bit hyperactive.....
always like 2 gossip wif my fren...
i really miss jing actually....
my ex-very very very best fren....
i didnt mean she's not by now...
juz....
haiz....
a bit....
.........................

i really neeeeeeeeed a best fren dat can helps me when i gt any problem....
i can share all my secret wif her...
i can do avything without beeing shy in front of her....
but in this sch...
i don thk i really got this type of fren lo...
aduiiii...very hard 2 find la...
bt i really hope i will find this soul fren...
wish 4 the best...



AHHHHH...
2moro will be a wonderful day AGAIN!!

after i view zhu zhu xia's blog...
i realised i've always write bout sumthing negatif....
york~
i din mean it actually...
but juz when i'm happy...
i will forget of everything...
hahaha....
funny....==''


yoooooo~
juz came bek from kuantan...
it's really fun there!!
me n my dearest buddy...
all sleep in 1 room...
wah....
we r totally crazy there...
haha....
of coz...
there's some big big problem happen too...
haiz....
no mood 2 write dat 1...

oo...n the moz exciting part...
the competition...
me...
the one who decide our mark....
and...
i failed...
not exactly fail la....
ay least we got top ten...
ya...we got number ten...xixixixi...

next week ar!! got singing competition...
ying,m.chin,zuhan n wendy ,chiao them say will support me...
haha...
happy ye....
cute la u all...
n thx .....

U noe ....
beeing your fren is juz so hard...
ya....sometimes is really fun....
but...
when u had your own things 2 do...
dat's when i was alone...
i felt miserable...
u never think of others feelings....
i could get million of us to agreed this....
y ??
honestly...
cant u juz treat me as a ''fren''??
it's dat simple...
u juz cant make it...

u r dat kind of person like
when u r happy u will treat me nicely...
i even thought u r another person...????
or yor soul got problem.........==
n when fooled me already...
u wont bother me.... again...

i realised.... dat i cant ''stay '' wif u anymore....
i'm awake...
n that's dat...
no more explanation...
i wont let u 2 be in my world....
never!!

It's the....days i leave ny dear school...
aaaa....i miss it....
when i leave it...
then i realised how much i miss it...
it's true...
tears drop on my lattop...

i noe dat's a wonderful memory...
i'm tryin not 2 keep thinking of it...
i'm tryin 2 shake this out of my mind...
arhhh...fine...i juz can't ...
T.T...

Anyway...
beeing in this school...
it's quite nice actually....
meet moore frenz...
(n more trouble 2...)
i really meet a lot of very nice frenz here...
WENDY!! ZUHAN!QIAO!! N hu else ??
ya...alot...
haha...thks 4 beeing my frenz guy...
woooo...u all r the bez!!



we've been discussing bout where v wanna go 2 study if v can...
zu han say she wanna go taiwan,china or even hong kong...
ying say she wanna go....ya! australia...
mingchin say she wan 2 be a teacher....
n i say i wan 2 go FORKS!!
but no 1 support me....
sad....
haha...
jk...i noe i cant ...
bt i really wan 2 go la...
haiz....

...

I...totally give up...
it's useless!!
i thought they had change ...
change into a better person...
but they're not!!
they are even worse than before...
y??
i really can't control my anger n sadness anymore....
i'm really really dissapointed wif u guys...
indeed...
(twilight...)
(new moon...)
(eclipse...)
(breaking dawn...)

aiks aiks...
chocolate ...
no more...
emmm
juice??
out of stock...
i'm trying 2 find things dat could make myself happy again...
nothing??
haiz...
XD...
i'm really happy now...
coz...
i saw...
eclipse trailer...

it's just a blog

Meet them again...
they dun seem very friendly...
haiz...
nvm
coz...
they are not any important person 2 me...
not at all...

i'm suffering...
suffer 4 wat??
1st-mid year exam
2nd-....sumthg

i'm trying 2 live dat a normal person should b...
but i finally found dat's really difficult...
i thk sum1 is trying 2 take revenge now...
scary...
wooooooo....


AIks aiks....
thk properly...
i thk my life still can say is half of the fairy tale...
coz i have my very best frens dat help me a lot...
jiexi...rui yun...liying....jia zhi ...ya!shi chee 2!!
they really give me a lotof strength n energy when gt some problem...
hahahaha....
i mayb not d famous person in d world ...
but wif u all my fren n my dearest family...
dat's more than enough that i need...XD
=)
XP
:)
smile always...
hahhahha

emm...
very confusing....quite happy dis days...
but
sometimes...
i still felt hurt
it's really complicated
i mean
dis world..
shouldn't frenz should b helping each other??
or...
at least trust yor fren...
y?? u ask me y??
hahahaha...
funny question...
i told u...
coz it's fren...



sometimes...
my heart is empty..
but sometimes is over full...
i think i'm really mad...
crazy heng...
wow..
nice name....
==''
many feelings...
my vision is blurred when i thk of dis...
i mean
a very
very
very
simple question...

i'm having a ...
how 2 say??
emmm...
i thk fear...
i'm scared...
timid me...
i admit dat...

can i b strong??
nononononononononononono
NO!!

i tried
but i .............
..................
......................
.....................juz can't do it...



happy day??
it's juz a mask

nothing...but hurt...